Bi-Polar Roller Coaster

“Bi-Polar Roller Coaster”

I cannot control these feelings I have;

I am strapped in for the ride

A roller coaster

Fun

Lust

Passion

Anxiety

Fear

Guilt

The sick feeling in the pit of my stomach

Waiting for the drop

Holding on

Screaming from the top

In an instant

G-forces

The bottom brings my heart to my throat

Upside down

Which way is up, really?

I can’t get off

They say I’m –

Crazy

Loopy

Unstable

A danger to myself;

Others?

Easy for them to say

They don’t have to enjoy the ride

Embrace the changing tide;

The tsunami of my mind

Caught in a ring of Hell;

Dante’s hurricane for lovers

I smile at the cool breeze

And breathe in my heart’s swell

Hamlet’s paradox:

Why can’t I die?

What’s on the other side?

That’s what keeps me here –

I cry at the thought of a lifetime

Of this roller coaster;

I only pray that God’s Love

Is great enough to keep this ride

From plunging into a great abyss.


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