I once dated you…
Well many times just in different forms
You saw your reflection in me and fell in love with yourself.
I made you bigger that the universe, better that myself.
I once loved you…
Well I just thought those were the norms
You saw my dependence and turned into a supplier
I negotiated the amount of care and attention
I would get, because it was “better” than nothing, so I thought.
I once idealized you…
Well my desperate heart only knew how to conform
You saw my feelings and locked them in a shelf
I sabotaged my autonomy and crumbled in despair
And like a thief who steals during day light,
You used my feelings and started to conspire.
I once killed you…
Well you got closer to the reflection in my heart,
You saw how great I made you and tried to snatch yourself
I moved away and you drowned in your pride, because you were just
The illusion of making you bigger than the universe and better than myself.