It is only a matter of time
We try to fake it until we make it
Or until it is stronger than our will to go on
What will it take?
When will it break?
The will to believe
The will to go on
The will to smile again
The hole which it digs is vast
Never ending
You wonder what is on the other side
All you can see is darkness
But it looks to peaceful
No gray area
Nothing unclear
Just empty
The empty there has to feel
Better than the empty here inside me
The haunted feeling of aloneness
The crowding in my head
The poking the prodding of your memory
The reminding anguish that lingers with the memories
The unanswered questions of why and when
What have I done to have chosen this path?
What am I to learn?
How long can I last?
I only wish for peace in my head
For my heart to be free of pain
For the echoes in my mind to stop asking
It is only a matter of time
Fake it until you make it
A battle that my mind, heart and soul is losing